Underwater the sounds of the world are muffled
The sounds of my lacerated heart beat and blood flow augment
But for a moment a fish in a pond, for a moment I cease to remember
The cool water and tranquil buoyancy calms the rage within, this chiseled to a sharp edge
I feel like a bomb about to detonate, my heart crystallizing into a hard shell
There are some crimes fueled by passion, now I understand
I wish I could cut out my heart and replaced it with a mechanical one
It would be best to purge the rage, to scream out loud on a mountain top, and then cry my heart out
I drove this morning wedged between an 18 wheeler and an SUV
As the lanes closed to merge, I did not care what if...
When does one cease to hurt?
I can’t turn on the radio and listen to love songs
I have the look of a wounded animal -- haunted by memories
So small, so demoralized, I feel like begging for sex – to numb the pain
Or simply to be sheltered in someone’s arms and erase your memory
Don’t look at me that way and pity me, It’s my entire fault
Why, why, why won’t you learn it’s not smart to invest the heart?
Stupid that’s what you are; then again everyone is a fool when in love
Cherish every moment they say…that is because it will never last
Life will make sure you pay the price…eventually
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