Darkness and Light

Sometimes I wonder why I even try
The struggle is perennial and ever permanent
I look up to the blue sky, with hopeful eyes...
A stout heart, and then I close my eyes as I
Project my energy to travel upwards. High towards
The heavens, through my pituitary gland...and beyond

Yet, below my middle section there is a cauldron brewing
Molten lava on the verge of erupting from a hot hole
"You know, when you walk towards the light, you will
encounter obstacles meant to derail you." She said
Yes, it's true...I can do fine without the meat and
alcohol, yet do you know what is my Achilles heel?

My mind, which rules my treacherous body
I think...I do believe that I have a dormant
calling. I think that if I had worked in a bordello,
I would have become one of the favorites
"Why is that?" She asked
Because of my chameleon nature, that's why

I would have weaved intricate scenarios
And picked each brain...to find out exactly what
What really made each tick; and I would have easily
Morphed into that which would trigger that response
I would have played with each head -- besides giving
Great head of course, although true to my nature...

I would have been genuinely loving too...you know? I'd have
Emulated in fashion Ms. Fanny Hill. "Why don't you just find
a nice guy?" She asked. You know if I am to stay on this path,
One can't delve into casual play
Temptation does comes in different forms, meant to derail
One. Like that guy...that man...I intuit that I would

Walk a fine line...between my dark and good side...
I might find my true nature perhaps? And, I am afraid of that
"Why not try it and get it out of your system?" She tempted
That is the conundrum, if I were to get it out of my system,
or perhaps become an addict? And in the process, I'd lose my path
"Life is short, live it up!" I smiled, "Such is the mirage."





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