I woke up in the middle of the night
The short, sheer nightgown, plastered to me
As I lay there, I realized that my subconscious
Had absorbed as if by osmosis, collective anxieties
I’ve registered and captured those like fingerprints
I calmed my mind and closed my eyes
Some moments later, a surge of powerful energy
Rushed over me. With resolution I sat up
And said to my self, you have to embrace your
Namesake
I used to be ashamed of my first name, because it is so strange
I braced for the inevitable question at the beginning of each class
“How do you pronounce your name?”... “Oh, it’s beautiful,”
Most would say. I did not share that sentiment for a long time
I was ashamed of it, like the clunky shoes my mother bought…
For me on sale, when I was in the sixth grade. Kids made fun of
Those, yet, if I knew then, what I know now, I would have walked
Proud of my clunky shoes, because they were unique, uncommon,
And my mother had bought those with much sacrifice
Once I looked up the origin and meaning of my name…
It grew on me; I wore it with ease, because it is powerful,
Uncommon, and unique. Yes, it is beautiful I agree
My first name, so unusual I’ve never encountered
Anyone else with such a name, is derived from the
One which means warrior-like
I am that, is true. I have to embrace the warrior in me
Walk with hand on sword, ever vigilant of my surroundings
Don’t trust each smiling face that you encounter; seek to
Unfold the true nature and motives in those around you
Don’t give pearls to pigs, for they won’t appreciate them
Most importantly, live fearlessly, for what is the worst
That can happen to you? To simply morph and travel forth,
So in perspective, that’s not so bad no? Revel in the complete
Freedom of not worrying about what others’ will think of you
You know one can’t please everyone, all of the time, don't you?
Be prudent and ever vigilant of those around you;
The smiling faces hide so much of their true nature
They hide the malice, vanity, avarice, envy, and predatory nature
The total moral bankruptcy and the fervent need to belong
And fit into society – at any cost, including their very soul
Steer clear and don’t try to change them. Acknowledge that is it
Better to run with those who vibrate at a similar frequency
For one can feel alone in a room full of boisterous noise
Be true to self, believe with conviction, and you will pass the test
Leave those to their kind, and seek those who seek the light
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