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Our Father, Who art in heaven looking down at your creation...what went wrong with man? Why do we destroy each other instead of lifting up our brothers to make the load easier to bear?

Blessed be Thy Name; above anything or anyone else...I humbly declare with such intense love, that can't be contained. I've sent lots of kisses up above, when I see signs that You are near me, or that Your hand is at play...without disrespect, I love You with every fiber of my being, and every ounce of my essence. I love you without reason, measure or edge. Even if you know that I'm a sinner, please refer to the above...that will never change...okay?

I am your humble servant and kneel before Thee, and no man. For man is fallible and harbors darkness in his heart. Perhaps you will see why I've been absent from mass for quite a while...I am seeking answers to make sense of it all... and I feel I can learn no more...there. If that makes me a sinner, then please take into account that my intentions are good.
"Thy kingdom come," in due time. I am working on check and balances when the day comes.

"Thy will be done;on earth as it is in heaven." I set upon your strong hands my problems, and let my worries dissipate. The worst that can happen is death, and then it's only bodily decay. Why spend precious time mired in misery and regret?

"Give us this day our daily bread." I am thankful for the beauty you have created for us to enjoy. I thank You for the warmth of the sun, which nourishes our crops, so that I can enjoy fresh bread, this fruit of my labor. For which case, I also thank You for making me able, to be able to do so, as it is not the case for everyone.

I did an about turn to look closely at a young woman selling gum on a street of Mexico. Her eyelids had sunk in, and those lacked eyeballs. Still, she is attempting to earn her daily bread in such fashion. I pray for her too, so that man won't ignore her plight and lighten her load with the purchase of gum. And I thank You for making her presence known, so that I can realize how truly lucky I am, without taking things for granted.

What am I saying? We're all trying to make a sale at some point or another. She aspires not even to a ration of happiness, except to fill her belly, and hopefully to rest her weary body on comfortable bedding. Her body may be nourished with food, yet perhaps famished for love. Dear Father, why is everyone not created equal?

I humbly realize that the pain I see, and have endured in my life, is there for a reason I can't comprehend. I pray that you give me the wisdom to do so, and the template to endure whatever comes my way.....

"and forgive us our trespasses,as we forgive those who trespass against us."
I know that I have a horrible temper, for which I periodically spare my presence to others.' But when the anger subsides, please know that I try to make amends somehow...even if I find it very hard to forgive and forget...but You know I'm just flawed...and human. Please help me be more gentle and ladylike...most of the time.

"And lead us not into temptation." ... actually, I know You don't lead us into temptation for we are fully aware of what is right and what is plain wrong...so I have to beg that help me not to fall prey to my desires and obsessions. I guess, I've been worst enemy then.

"but deliver us from evil." Evil is ever present as there is night and day, light and darkness. I pray that you give me the fortitude to walk away from the easier path, the lure to appease my baser instincts which threaten to overthrow my good intentions. The internal battle is perennial. In advance I ask for your patience and forgiveness for when I err, but You can look into the hearts of men, and You know who I am.

I don't ask for much, although I do have to ask for those who are lost in the path, and fall prey to doubt, pain, bouts of misery and brake down and cry. Please lighten their load; help the alone feel loved, and to become whole. Also please open for us doors, so that we can live a full life as surely you intend for us all.

Please help me to be all right with what I have, and not sell myself for a plate of lentils. Amen



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