Foke-d.For this reason, I’m looking for people as foke-d up too. If you want nice and sweet, need not read further.
A few nights ago, I was suddenly awakened...for just a moment I think I died. Perhaps it was an involuntary out- of- body experience, yet it forced me to take inventory of my life. Had I died that night, I would have died utterly alone. Since I almost never bother to answer my cell phone, it would take some time to be found.
When faced with mortality, one must make inventory of what has transpired thus far. Accomplished, or not as-of-yet. Although the bottom line is, I would have departed that night without knowing true, enduring love. Love yes, but enduring? Can it last past the physical attraction phase? At this point, I hate to be pessimistic, yet one must be realistic. To long for that which is intangible, ephemeral, dubious on occasion seems delusional. The ideal for me would be to adopt some of the basic beliefs of Buddhism. If existence is suffering with a cause, this caused by craving and attachment, them letting go of those is in reality freedom.
When faced with mortality, one must make inventory of what has transpired thus far. Accomplished, or not as-of-yet. Although the bottom line is, I would have departed that night without knowing true, enduring love. Love yes, but enduring? Can it last past the physical attraction phase? At this point, I hate to be pessimistic, yet one must be realistic. To long for that which is intangible, ephemeral, dubious on occasion seems delusional. The ideal for me would be to adopt some of the basic beliefs of Buddhism. If existence is suffering with a cause, this caused by craving and attachment, them letting go of those is in reality freedom.
Can I live in perpetual state of celibacy? I am playing with fire...just barely touching the heat emanating from it. I am obsessed with sex, and yet to agree to casual sex. A man sent me e-mail in which he described his art studio,with chains hanging from its ceiling. The description of this scenario, brought back memory of a movie I saw a while back. This woman was sequestered, made to stand nude, shivering cold, with hands above her head, these secured by chains hanging from ceiling of a dark warehouse. One of her captors, secured her legs around his waist while impaling her. I cannot erase that image, nor the e-mail...it insinuates itself ocassionally, keeping my arousal level at a low-simmering, yet perennial levels. Perhaps I should focus on the agape type of love, than Eros.
It must be true that love is "simple narcissism" am I just looking for someone to validate me. This is why I'm foke-d up.
As to my laundry? Only done when it is critically imperitive, and even then will go comando a few days. I have lately taken to driving recklessly. Just yesterday I speeded off a driveway, while a MTA bus was careening to its stop on that same corner. I also like to flirt with semi trucks as well. If only to drive by with skirt hiked up, since it is hot out there!
Only a masochistic man would dare to handle a foke_d person. Every week I get the local free read. At the end of this, there is post for S& M club in Hollywood which is seeking to employ Dominatrices. Do they offer training? Guess I can put in my application my innate knack for sending a few men running to the therapist's couch? Can supply those references. As to verbal admonishment? Well I excel in that category and surely will quickly build a regular clientele!
Yes I am foke_d, and if you are too and are single, perhaps we may even fok each other --perhaps, don't pressure me. I am through trying to win your approval. I have reached a moment of enlightment, of zen. I will tenaciously hold on to my new philosophy, this being:...fok it...fok it all.
It must be true that love is "simple narcissism" am I just looking for someone to validate me. This is why I'm foke-d up.
As to my laundry? Only done when it is critically imperitive, and even then will go comando a few days. I have lately taken to driving recklessly. Just yesterday I speeded off a driveway, while a MTA bus was careening to its stop on that same corner. I also like to flirt with semi trucks as well. If only to drive by with skirt hiked up, since it is hot out there!
Only a masochistic man would dare to handle a foke_d person. Every week I get the local free read. At the end of this, there is post for S& M club in Hollywood which is seeking to employ Dominatrices. Do they offer training? Guess I can put in my application my innate knack for sending a few men running to the therapist's couch? Can supply those references. As to verbal admonishment? Well I excel in that category and surely will quickly build a regular clientele!
Yes I am foke_d, and if you are too and are single, perhaps we may even fok each other --perhaps, don't pressure me. I am through trying to win your approval. I have reached a moment of enlightment, of zen. I will tenaciously hold on to my new philosophy, this being:...fok it...fok it all.
