- “Please tell me what your objective is?” He inquired.
- Well doctor, you see, after careful evaluation of the pros and cons, I decided I should get a prescription once more for Prozac. Not for mental issues, I am more lucid than the average person. I simply want it to help me subjugate my high libido.
- “When did you get Prozac, for what duration, and why was it prescribed to you at that time?”
- It was in 1998, right after the death of my father. That was particularly devastating to me. I took it for about 6 months. This was coupled with therapy which really helped me shed my incredible shyness. In fact, " I swung to the opposite side of the pendulum," as my therapist said. The sessions with her were very productive. I noted my sexual drive cooled off with those pills, that is the reason I want them now.
- “I see. Do you expect to re-instate these therapy sessions long term with me?”
- Oh no…I simply need the prescription please. I do not want any therapy.
- “Why not? The medicine only suppresses the symptoms, not the underlying cause, motivations, or fears. It is advised that medicine be dispensed, along side therapy which will terminate with some form of closure for you.”
- Excuse me - please listen to me! I don’t want therapy. Why would I pour alcohol on open wounds? Or stand naked, in broad daylight, without make-up even, in front of a magnifying mirror, with cameras and reflectors focused on me, to capture every nuance and breakdown? That’s so masochistic!
- “I hear a lot of pain, are you sure the libido issue is the only motivation for requesting this prescription? Tell me about your father, what was your relationship with him like?”
- My dad?…I can sum my relationship with him in the simple act of taking hold of his hand, and looking up at him, feeling perfectly and unconditionally loved, and absolutely safe! I looked up to him, literally and figuratively. Unfortunately, we separated when I was nine. And you know what? I’ve always been attracted to older, intelligent men who have a strong personality. Men who stimulate my mind. I guess…I was trying to find a simulated version of my dad. Anyway, to summarize, I’ve been burnt, I’m not looking for anything at this moment, and I figure this green pill will help me through the day – and nights.
- “I strongly advise that we start with six week session, and post a physical, I will give you the prescription that is best suited for you. If you need it, a lot of people work through issues in therapy.”
- You know doc, I’m getting a headache. Why not go for instant gratification - for numbness? The instant remedy? It’s like anti-American. You think anyone would buy a rotary dial television set? You know how many people burn fossil fuels while sitting in their cars at the drive-through? Too lazy to walk inside - or cook for that matter? If you encountered a giant boulder blocking the road, would you push it, or simply walk around it?
[ cell phone vibrates ]
- “Excuse me, I must get this call, it is an emergency, one minute.” He said.
- No problem doc.
- No problem doc.
