I was in line to make a payment, lost in my own reverie. Frequently, I have to watch myself when I am in a meeting with clients and I tune off into my world. While they ramble on, I use my intuition to catch up, when I need to jump back into the drift of what is being said.
When in line, I was told by another customer to stand on the arrows set forth, even though there was no one else behind me, before she had come in. I did not even turn to look at her. I could not move or acknowledge what she said I must do to comply with what she thinks needs to be done, for order to reign in this chaotic world. I think I will play deaf on occasion, when the mood strikes.
I have changed so much, and although hardened a bit, I feel my tolerance for conformity is precariously limited. With my new found enthusiasm, and vigor acquired on the eve of 2008, I will put forth lots of effort in my goals.
I divided a paper into four squares, and in each quarter of the year, I wrote attainable goals. In the first quarter, along with other plans, I intend to find an affectionate lover. I am through with notion of self denial; life is too short not to fully live. Sometimes we may not get what we want, but we can get what we need to get by, as the song goes.
